I have been silent for a bit, sorry about that. My new night job has been taking up a lot of my time and brain power. By the time I get home I barely have the energy for much more than some Facebook and Twitter perusal and bad internet porn. Is there such a thing as good internet porn? Here is a confession, I can rarely stand the women in porn, the faces they make, the oooh babies with that pursed overlined lip, the long painted nails that the camera zooms on as they rapidly stroke themselves. I need less medical exam meets urban vo-tech cosmetology course in my porn. So, Hentai is my go to on the rare occasions that I need a suggestion to get off. Not the crazy tentacle alien beast shit… I like the traditional role playing scenes of power/submission or some good voyeurism/exhibitionism. If the overdub is annoying, I mute it. It is enough of a suggestion to do what I need it to do. Seriously, have you watched some straight porn these days? It’s just wrong. Bad tans, bad implants… it is quite possibly just the extra footage that is shot on Jersey Shore that can’t make it on the regular show due to sensors. I turn it off for fear of seeing Snooki and being permanently blinded.
Without permanent ailments such as blindness, I haven’t been feeling stellar as I haven’t been eating well the last week or so and I’ve been running on reserves. I tend to eat better when I am cooking and lately I have only had time to cook when I am seeing Type Geek, if our dates have been canceled or postponed due to his schedule, then I end up putting off that evenings meal until far later than I should have and subsequently I eat something easy but far less nutritious. Rice Chex is NOT a great meal, no matter what the company may want to tell you.
The cancellations and postponement of the dates also have me feeling lame. I have been slow to test out that dating site I am supposed to be reviewing because I truly don’t have a ton of available time anymore, and the time I do have, I’d like to spend some of it with Type Geek, but needing to stay so flexible for him right now, and in the end, sometimes still not seeing him, is reaching a frustration of epic proportions. Please keep in mind that he just lost some junior people and a consultant, 4 people in one week, when he was already stretched too thin. Now, things are worse. He was heading one challenging client with multiple projects in the MidWest. Now, he is heading that AND another multi million dollar client on the East Coast. Deadlines are a noose around his neck and he needs to recruit, hire and train bodies to assist AND move into the companies new satellite office. The benefit of the office is that he will be working in town now, rather than driving nearly two hours to another state! So, I am trying to be understanding, but it is hard. If I could know that I had one standing date every week to see him, then ok, but it is the ambiguity and flexibility required of me, without a guaranteed pay off, that is becoming difficult to muster.
I don’t have the energy to go out and start dating someone new right now, and quite frankly, I would like to give Type Geek a good solid chance at seeing what might be possible, but am I being blind to what is the reality? Is this why he is single? Is this the best it gets?