Future Lawyer and I were chatting online tonight and it became clear that he really wants something different from what I can offer. I am nearly 6 years older, and was a lesbian longer than he has even been sexually active. His life has been, and is, very safe and planned out. Mine has always been unconventional and without safety net. I can not be that girl that he needs, no matter how gorgeous he thinks I am or how great I think his kissing is. Besides, I always knew that it would be very short term for me. So, with memories of a sexy make out session to Mahler, and getting thrown out of a mall for almost committing acts of public indecency, we decide that we should pass and just be friends.
What comes next… a coffee date with a man whose cheekbones frighten me and cocktails with the owner of my favorite coffee house.